Why can't I?

I've been asking myself these questions. So why can't I? I wanted to post something and nurture my skill. the problem is I still can't figure out what my expertise is , I wanted to get a job after graduation so that i'm not such a burden to my parents.

What am I to do?!!!!!

I wanted to study in UP and attend my Masters degree but then I also wanted to be an animator. Two different fields, can't I make them both. Actually I can! But then I lack the encouragement that I need from people around me. And I haven't done anything interesting, not like the ones who are talented.

Please God Help me!! I will be waiting..

I want to be an Animator and Embedded Systems Developer.

I can't believe how many smart ideas or character for animation or story concept I have while I'm asleep than when I'm awake. It's just so magical. It happens several times already that I didn't wrote it down. How lazy of me. Next time, I'll bring some sketchbook and pencil in bed. It's such a great idea than I can't remember now. When I'm awake, I'm having a hard time thinking for animation, maybe because I've been thinking many things.

Need to simmer things a little.. so that creative juices will flow like water..

But how? if I have a busy college life with lots of requirements... God Help me!!!!